Since sort of accidentally coming back to this tonight, I just spent an hour or so going through some of your guys' recent posts.
I forgot how much I loved this community.
I also forgot how messed up and shaken I felt.
Counting calories, bingeing, starving, etc.
I can't lose focus on my education at the moment, so I'm just going to have one or two meals a day, of moderate size, because I've already planned my meals to use up all the food I have in the freezer...
Exercise at least half an hour a day. THIS MEANS YOU FRIDAYS!
Tidy and organise my room.
Have some kind of social thing once a week.
Do some form of work EVERY day.
Be 155lbs. Kinda an out-there goal, but it's got to be.
BMI reward chart...there is no witty name for this as yet.
Height: 5'4" Current BMI:27.11 Current Weight: 160 Goal BMI: 17 Goal Weight: Around 100lbs. 95 would be nice.
Rewards: My rewards are probably going to all be cheap food related because I have very little money, and I like food, and I like rewards. 27 - Mac No Meat meal. 26 - Shake It Shake. 25 - Starbucks/Cafe Nero lunch. 24 - Subway. 23 - Pizza Hut with my boyfriends :) 22 Onwards will be decided close to the time...
1) People will like you more. 2) You will stop having no confidence. 3) Noone will condemn you for eating chocolate or anything if you're skinny. 4) You'll finally be able to do all the things you want to do. 5) You'll make all the guys want you, and all the girls jealous. 6) Clothes will look much better. 7) You can prove you're able to do something; prove everyone else wrong. 8) You can make people proud, you have accomplished something. 9) People will take you more seriously. 10) Clothes will fit you better. 11) Your boyfriend will never want to leave you, and if he does, he'll be sorry. 12) You owe it to the 11 year old who cried and tried to sneakily do the Geri Halliwell Yoga video to lose weight. 13) And you owe it to all the trying and failing and crying and sitting alone you've ever done. This will continue...
Things I have learned so far:
1) Go to bed if you're hungry in the night. 2) Get up as late as possible. 3) In general, spend as much time asleep as possible, away from thoughts about food. For me, this has included on the bus. 4) Drink water whenever you even think about food. Two birds, one stone. 5) I have to eat regularly, even if it's like, 10 cals to prevent a huge-ass binge. Because I suck. But if it stops a binge, it's a-ok. 6) Make yourself as busy as possible, for me, as much overtime at work (a busy restaurant) as I can, meaning more cals burnt, more money, and less eating.