Friday, 28 January 2011

Cold turkey.

hey you guys.
I've had some serious fails lately, spent about £120 on junk food in two weeks, and just really hated/upset myself.
But I'm trying to go into this new thing with a healthy, positive attitude :)
SO, I'm going cold turkey on the following things:
Sugar (in coffee etc.)
Fried potatoes

There's probably more but off the top of my head that's what I've written down. I feel good writing that list; like I'm already cleansing my body of these things.
Now, because I don't have scales in my flat, I can't reward myself on weight, so I will reward myself instead with the amount of time I can stay away from these foods.

So far I have:

One day (29/1/11) - Notebook from Paperchase (This doesn't really count because I need a notebook, haha)
Two weeks (11/2/11) - No idea what, but it'll be the next thing I buy. Probably blusher...

I don't know what else to have, I'll think about it :)

Tuesday, 25 January 2011

Fail, fail, fail, fail, fail.

Just binged solidly for like a week.
Spent loads of money on food.
Like £70 or £80.
That's nearly a whole term's food.
Problematic much :/
Anyway, back on track today I think...
I hope.
Under 1,000cals
I ate a brownie thing because it was leftover from yesterday.
Gonna drink 3 litres of water today too, I hope.
I just hate looking in the mirror.
So I know it's time to change.

Sunday, 23 January 2011

Off the wagon.

I've had two take aways everyday for four or five days.
I can't even describe how gross I feel.
I've spent about £50 this week on food.
But, I'm moving past it
With this dinner; just a 200cal Quorn escalope.
Then tomorrow my only meal will be that cottage pie; 384 cals I think.
I'm going to make a list of things to do to keep me busy on my day off.
I think that's what I'll do daily now :)
Maybe in my food diary?
I have like 3 diaries now, aha.

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

I think

My tummy is starting to get used to less food, and I'm starting to get better at ignoring hunger.
These two things combined mean I'm feeling pretty good :)
Although I ate a few too many calories today.
Oh well.
I haven't drunk enough water either.
Don't know what I'm doing tomorrow.
I did want to sleep between lectures, but I have to watch a film for Italian Cinema.
Maybe soup, then cottage pie for tea?
So total of like 500cals.
To help even out today...

Fail day.

I went into town for lunch.
For one thing, I spent a tenner on food.
That's a week of supermarket shopping!
For a second thing, I'm about to work out how much I ate:
1 Nando's veggie wrap: 633cals
1 por. Nando's chips: 340 cals
1 Iced Mocha from Starbucks: 150cals

Total: 1123cals.
Thank goodness I a) didn't get cake at Starbucks and b) walked around town for ages.
I'm back to using DailyPlate.
Might do some hula-hooping later.
This post is so inconsistent.

Tuesday, 18 January 2011


I really want to bingeeeee.
But I won't.
I can do this.

Plus, I've had too much food today already.
Instead of cottage pie I had two Quorn chicken burgers and a small small small portion of chips, and salad.
So I had maybe like...900cals today?
Did about an hour of walking.
Nothing crazy.

Change of plan.

I'm having macaroni cheese for lunch, which is 370cals for a tin, then the 384 cals for the cottage pie later on.
I just feel so ill, I know it's because my stomach is getting used to not having 2000/3000 cals a day.
So I didn't think jumping to 400cals a day would be very good for me.
But a total of 756cals is alright, even though it's a lot of carbs, but apart from a half bag of pasta, it's good to get rid of all the bad food soon on.
Now it's just a load of Quorn, frozen veg and a bag of salad in my kitchen :D

That's all for now.
I should have put peas in this macaroni and cheese :/
It's not very nice tbh.

Monday, 17 January 2011


I resisted buying any more food from Asda.
I don't feel too good; I can tell my body is trying to adjust to not being stuffed with carbs and junk all the time.
Today I had:
Tuna sandwich 310
Wotsits 95
Quorn chicken fillet 184
Salad cream 50

Total: 639

Yay :)
Although I didn't do any exercise except traipse round Asda.
Tomorrow I'm going to have soup for lunch, then cottage pie and salad for dinner.
No idea how many calories are in the soup yet, but there's 187 in the cottage pie.
So probably about 400 or so altogether?
That doesn't seem like very much :/ And not in a good way, in a bad way.
If I'm super hungry I'll have the whole cottage pie which is 374 calories altogether.
We shall see...

It's important to

Block out other people that eat healthily and exercise but aren't lovely and skinny. They're not me.
That's my thought of the day.
That and how much I'm bored of this essay.
Plus someone in my dorm just got a McDonalds, I can smell it through my door.

Sunday, 16 January 2011

So far, so good.

Little motto I need to adhere to.
But it's held true today; I came back to Uni and I just had a sandwich at lunch and a vegetable roll when i got back.
Not brilliant, but I didn't cave and order takeaway when my roomate wanted to.
So I'm going to try to keep up that mentality.
Tomorrow, I'm doing an essay all day, so I'm going to have a tuna sandwich at lunch, then I'm having some salad, just lettuce and stuff, and a Quorn chicken fillet.
So like 700 cals for the day?
Which is good considering I won't be doing any exercise at all.
I really need to get back into the swing of things.
Oh, and the only breaks I'm having from the essay will be to hula-hoop, because I brought my weighted hoop back to Uni with me :D

Wednesday, 12 January 2011

Ha, that was shallow and weird and inconclusive.

I mean, I hate being all wallowing and self-loathing.
I have a lovely life, but sometimes things get said that make me realise how much happier I'd be if I was skinnier.
I only have 5 hours of lectures this semester, so I'm mostly left to my own devices, alone in my room and everything.
I need to spend more time going for walks/drinking loads of water/working on my own scripts/filmwork/doing extra reading/getting seminar prep done early/doing essays super early/blogging/networkings.
And stuff like that.
And only buying 2 big bags of salad and one or two Quorn products for a week's shopping.
Probably only need one meal a day since I normally sleep like 12 hours a day while I'm at Uni...
But yeah.
Plus I don't plan on going home much this term; no need to.
There's a month between me going back to Uni and my boyfriend coming to stay, so it'd be neat for him to see a little change in me :)

The second I get back to Uni

Quorn, vegetables, and soup, and that's it.
Oh, and lots of water.
I don't want to feel un-confident anymore.
Plus I want to save money.
So I won't have to buy clothes and stuff.
And writing on here I guess.
Blurgh, I need things to fill up my time.